I Think It's Time To Move On...

After a good 4 years of being together, I think it is time to call it quits. Don't get me wrong, I'm not one to just get up and give up on a relationship, especially one that has lasted so long. There were good times and bad time, ups and downs, but that can be expected from any relationship. We both have our faults, but I guess that's what a good relationship is all about, learning to accept each other's faults and to work around them. The times we had together and that we still have together is priceless, after all she was my first. The first to make me take control, the first to put total power in my hands, the first to give me the ride of my life the way I wanted.

But with all these positives and memories I can't fight this feeling, the feeling that it's time to part, time to move on with our lives, to take our separate paths. I tried to hold on longer, but the urge is so strong. At first when we came together as a team, it was fun, exhilarating, a bit nerve wrecking as we were both new to each other, even though she was more experienced than me. Even though she treated me well and took me to where I wanted to be as best as she could, despite me not treating her as good as I should have, I still think it's time we moved on.

I know my female bloggers are probably disappointed in me now, but this is just how life is. Nothing lasts forever, no matter how good it was in the beginning, no matter how much work you put in it, at a point you just have to give up. And giving up is so much easier when there is better out there, something newer, with more passion and make you heart crave with lustful desire. Yes I admit it, my heart has been captured by a new flame, no not a flame, a new raging fire!

The new object of my desire is a whole lot sexier, prettier, stronger and from the looks of things feel a lot better. I know without a doubt my new love will give me an even better ride of my life, will take me much further and much quicker than my old love. From the first time I laid eyes on her, it was love at first sight and I could just imagine what it would feel like to be inside, revving, turning and pushing the limits! She is very pricey, not sure if I can muster up the doe to win her over, but I know to have her to do my bidding is worth the effort.

I hope my old love will find someone who will take better care of her than I did, who will make her shine and look flashy. But that is just not me, it will not solve the problems she has and as she ages more problems will only follow. So I have decided to to do what I think is the smart thing and move on... Yes people I have decided it's time to sell my 1998 Honda Civic sedan and upgrade to a newer ride! I have been eying the new shape 2005 Honda Civic sedan! Yes it's pricey, but that is the only vehicle that I see that I want right now as the Japanese shape Accord is too expensive and I really don't want to go up to the 2.0 litre engine with these gas prices. I hope to be rolling clean by late this year if all goes well and the money flows right. So go ahead, gaze and dream with me on the new ride I want to get.

Are You a risk Taker?

Your Risk Taking Level: Medium-Low

You'll take a risk if you have to, but you prefer to err on the side of caution. If something looks like it's going to work out, you may just go for it. But frivolous risks like gambling totally aren't your style. You prefer to have as much control over your life as possible.

Are You a Risk Taker?

I wonder if this makes me boring?

Hot, Hot, Hot!

Has anyone noticed how hot it is, or is it just me? Am I suffering from a fever, Dengue maybe? I feel no pain, no dizziness, my lips aren't cracking. I felt my forehead and I felt my neck with the back of my hand, but I don't feel a fever. It has been so hot these last few days here in Kingston, and when I say hot I don't mean 'I can fan myself cool hot'. I mean miserable, tormenting, sweat oozing, skin burning, relentless heat. I can't believe it's this hot and it is not even Summer as yet and worse it May! May, the so called rainy month! Isn't it supposed to be cool and wet right now, instead of like some, desolate arid region?

Things have gotten so bad that, shirts and A-shirts are no longer a part of my bedtime attire, and if it gets any worse than this I think my draws will suffer the same fate! Rolling over my sheets has become nothing more than an empty, monotonous, nightly ceremony that I do, as it doesn't get even the slightest chance to cover my skin. Once the fan used to be on the medium setting, then it went to high as it oscillated to cool the room. But with heat like this, no more left, right, up or down for me, I want the full blast of the breeze directly on me. I can't allow even a second to elapse with me being separated from the wind. But alas, not even that can bring relief as the fan only throws hot air at me, as I toss and turn in my burning agony!

Hoping and praying for cooler days only seem like a fantasy, a dream in the face of this heat and the impending summer months. If the hottest months are not yet here and it is this hot now, how will I survive? My extremely hot oven... um, sorry, I mean apartment, is not equip with the luxury of an air conditioning unit. So now it has become necessary to approach my landlady for assistance to end my torture and install a unit, even a small one was my apartment is not big at all. If this is granted, it will mean another hole in my already porous pocket, but, I am now willing to make the sacrifice just to have peace, a good night's rest, escape from this torment. Hopefully she will have pity on me and install a unit as I can't picture myself going through the intense torture that I suffered last summer. There were night when I only had 2 hours sleep due to the sweltering temperatures. So an AC is not just a want, but now a need!

Until there are once again cooler days or my landlady installs a unit I will have to try my best to live through this hot, humid condition, especially in the confines of my apartment. But mi nah lie, it hot nuh ra..!